As a girl of only 14, finding out that I was pregnant was definitely a shock. I had no idea what I was going to do with my life and with the small life growing inside of me. I was very frightened of the unknown future and of how my family would react. Not long after, my mother sent me to live in Nampa, Idaho with my grandparent. It was best to get away from the situation in my home town with the baby’s father.
In Nampa, I began attending Parkview High School, a teen-parent school and began seeing a counselor at Lifeline. After talking with my counselor and thinking more about my situation, I soon realized that I was not mature enough to care for a newborn baby. I also did not have the resources I needed to raise a child. On top of that, I wanted my baby to have a daddy, which she would not if I were to care for her. My family was very supportive and would have helped me if I decided to parent my sweet baby, but I knew that it would be best for her to have a stable home with good parents who could provide her with everything she needed. Choosing to place my daughter for adoption was one of the hardest decisions I have every made because I love her more than words can say, but definitely one that has blessed me more than I first imagined.
When I was only four months along in my pregnancy, I met with Cara Walsh and decided that I wanted to work with A New Beginning through the adoption process. I was very nervous and uncertain about what I was doing, but Cara always was so helpful and caring for me as I went through this. I wouldn’t have been able to do it without her.
I got 13 binders of families to look through and had to decide what family I wanted to interview as potential adoptive parents for my baby. One couple caught my eye and I wanted to meet them first. After the first meeting, I knew this couple was the one I wanted to care for my daughter. At our second meeting, I told them I wanted them to be the parents of my baby. The mother reached her hand out to me from across the table and she held my hand while she cried tears of joy. At that moment, I knew that I had made the right decision and that my daughter would be very well cared for and loved.
On June 25, 2015, Ava was born. It was an incredible experience and there were so many tears of happiness over this new little life. The adoptive parents were there in the hospital with me and Cara came in to see me as soon as she could get there. My counselor also came in to see me the next day. It was amazing to be with my baby while I was in the hospital and it was amazing for me to see how much support I had from everyone.
As of today, I am a senior in high school and taking dual credit classes. I plan to get my CNA before I graduate this year. I also get to visit with Ava and her amazing parents every few months. It is incredible! Ava is already two and is such a beautiful, smart girl who I love with all my heart. Her parents are incredible and they always make room for me in their lives and Ava’s. It means the world to me.
Looking back on this experience, I can see how God turned a horrible situation into a beautiful story where I can give Him all the glory. He was able to grow me into the person I am today through this experience. I am blessed by Cara, my counselor, Linda and everyone else who helped me through this process, including my teachers at Parkview. What an amazing and beautiful story I have. I am blessed more than words will every say and I hope my story speaks hope to you all.